You are making huge strides in your healing. I recall after my very long term relationship ended, it took me a long while to put myself back in order.
I too was afraid to leave my job, so my HP helped me out a little. Am I scared? (gulp), yep, terrified. But it's change and I need to get used to change becase it seems like my HP is keep going to thrust change at me until I get comfortable with it.
When can I move in?