Don't beat yourself up. I know its hard, and now you feel like you did a stupid thing, blah blah, we have all felt that way. And I had a VERY tiny amount yesterday with my mother in law, simply to avoid questions, didn't get a buzz either, and I'm back to day 1 today. I almost feel like if I make myself go "back" to day 1, even tho it was just a little slip, it punishes me enough to make me wanna fly straight even more. You're back, and thats what counts. Good for you!