Hey Noodle
I really believe you can never lose if you never give up...I struggled for 15 years to 'get this' (I don't think the 15 year stretch is necessary though lol)
Look at what happened and why it happened. Think about what else you need to do to ensure it doesn't happen again - things like do you need more support, do you need to change your life a little more?...
There's hundreds of people here who've changed their lives. You can too
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