Thanks for the replies you guys. Yes I know in the end it is my decision. And, I am not sure what that decision looks like right now. Currently I am just trying to take care of myself. Keeping myself sober today... and tomorrow.
I am attending my first AA meeting tonight. Doing whatever I can to make it stick and make it right this time.
I never want to be out of control like that again. Not to mention the fact that I could have killed someone on the drive home. It is just the worest situation.