Just a quick note. I am in therapy and do have someone who is helping me through all of this. So, I feel like the slippery slope I am on is atleast at incline that isn't going to overwhelm me.
My therapist said when I play the tapes in my head that tell myself what a bad and horrible person I am... that I need to add "because of my descisions to drink alcoholic"... I have been sober now for 3 days. And, while that is a big deal... I still feel this tight knot in my throat and the pit of my stomach... and I am not sure how to deal with that part.