Originally Posted by
firestorm090 
I've got to find a way of changing the way my mind works.
This is exactly it, Dallas. The big idea. The dilemma of powerlessness.
I can not change the way my mind works.
Now, if I
must change the way my mind works, and I
can not change the way my mind works, then I'm in a real pickle. Oh my God, there is no way out of this mess! That realization, in my heart, that I am not going to stop drinking, provides the desperation of a drowning man.
I'm 100% screwed. This is what forces me into Step 2. Only then do I seek God on his terms, not mine.
Am I willing to believe that something can fix me? That some power exists that I can tap into? Well, I didn't believe, but I was willing to believe. I was willing to believe because I had become thoroughly convinced of the hopelessness and futility of life as I'd been living it.
A wonderfully effective spiritual structure can be built on that foundation of surrender and subsequent hope. Or so I've read.