when someone is abusive, it affects us. we put on the armor yet still it's hard to not feel the bullets.
keep doing the next best thing, knowing that he won't "get it" or be respectful, but you have a roof over your head til something breaks.
i'm sorry i don't have any really great advice, but i love your powerful words when you speak to others; i wanted to reach out to you in some small way.
do you have a flashlight?