Originally Posted by
LaFemme 
I'm wondering about the Good times we've had with alcohol...the weddings, the parties, baseball games and picnics...those were wonderful occasions weren't they? But were they wonderful because of the booze or because they were alreaady good times?
For me, the Good Times were wonderful
because of the booze. I was drunk and relaxed. I felt good.
Sober, I won't attend events. They aren't fun by any stretch of the imagination. Being around a big group of people requires me to put on a happy mask and get into character. By the time the event is over, I am exhausted and just want to be alone to recharge.
When I was drunk, I enjoyed being social. Granted, I hated the woman I'd become by the time I quit drinking. I was obnoxious and mean. The fun, by that time, was long over.
When I think of the fun times, it's that period
after I became a heavy drinker but
before things got so bad I'm remembering. It's gone forever, though. And that's that.