Hey Kody! Sorry you didn't make it today. Before you go to sleep tonight maybe get rid of all the alcohol in the house...it helped me.
Sounds like you have some problems with AA, have you tried alternative avenues? If you don't like group settings there are one on one counseling sessions. Or maybe you just haven't found the right AA group? I'm not in AA, but I think it is a great starting point for a lot of people. If you go it alone, you really need to get a plan in place because it means you won't be following one that someone else has already set up. Maybe try reading the Big Book, I hear it's got a lot of great advice.
For me, I did about 5 years of reading, researching, praying and failing before things clicked. So I recommend trying a different way than me
