I have been DONE WITH each of my EXes at a certain point, but would keep hanging on and perservering for this reason and that reason or some other reason. Hurting, crying, trying, begging, whatever. It is WEIRD looking back on this because I do not understand why I could not just let go. It was like I was being electrocuted and couldn't let go of my grip. It's like my brain needs time to catch up with what I had already decided. At some point I realized, "Sheesh! You were done with him, why did you keep hanging on?"