I think this is where I go next.
It has been almost a year since I had my last drink and blackout. I don't like thinking that I can never drink again but I choose not to drink today.
It appears to me that the people around me think that I can start drinking again because my year is up. This really scares me because I might start believing them..that I am cured...blah...I don't feel any different. I know that if I take that one drink it won't be enough and I will end up on the floor.
So I now think that I should concentrate on the 12 steps.
Step 1. Yes, I admit that I was/am powerless over alcohol and yes my life was/is unmanageable.
Has taken me a year...but I admit this now. Now what?