Hi Goodman - what you're feeing is normal. It's an emotional thing for us reaching out and admitting we have a problem. In some ways it's a relief, but it's also hard and scary, too. Part of this is the effect of alcohol, which really messes with our brains (it stops producing it's own dopomine, among other things). It creates depression and anxiety.
The good news is that it gets better with each day we're sober. The common advice is to take it a day (or an hour) at a time and don't pick up that first drink. This is a great place for support, so keep posting and reading!