Goodman, welcome to our forum. Whether or not you believe alcoholism is a disease or not, if you feel like you have a problem with drinking, you probably do. I think most of us have felt the same emotions you are feeling, and we definitely can support you, and offer understanding. Can you give us some more information as far as your drinking is concerned? How much, how often, and how it affects you and those around you? And do you have a plan on how to deal with it? A lot of people here do AA, and really like it. I myself use this forum as my support system, and am on the computer quite a bit. Its helped me tremendously. There are a lot of resources and literature out there, and I'm sure you can find a program that will fit your needs. Good luck and keep posting and reading!