Just got off work I have been dog sitting. I will be truly alone now with my thoughts and I am so scared. Thinking about who she is talking to. Or who she is with. This is DRIVING ME NUTS!!!!! I truly think that is my biggest problem. Been thinking a lot about what she used to say to me. You are so negative. And I agree with her I got to that point because I never knew what was next. Is she gonna come home to me tonight or will tonight be the night I am pacing worrying wondering. But at the same time when she was home watch tv have dinner go to bed. If she is with someone how can they make her happy and I couldnt. So these are the thoughts in my head everyday all day. I look forward to sleeping even if I have to take something to sleep. NYQUIL has become my friend. I HATE that. I shouldnt have to do it. *crying* I want to thank all of you if it wasnt for SR I think I would be truly depressed. Thanks for all the insight.