I use to drink very heavily and I went thru hell quitting. I am glad I was able to quit. People in AA have told me that they don't think I am really an alcoholic.
I have siblings still out there using every day and one who is clean he has gotten clean before and done very well and even worked in counseling as he does now. I am so glad he is once again out of the hell. But I can also feel the tention he has sometimes and I know he is in constant pain as he broke his back in several places and has a metal plate with screws in it in the femur of one of his legs and a broken calcanius. I try to just rejoice with him everyday that he is clean but honestly I do worry about him. I admire him for fighting cause I know it is a fight for him and he got so bad right before he got clean again. He got busted and was offered rehab or prison he took rehab but he did have to sit in jail for a while he got mercer disease while in jail and almost lost his hand and was rushed into emergency surgery he was in the hospital almost a month with the merce disease.
I have another brother who is getting ready to do 5 years for crack pocession and he has been on a real rampage of using since he was busted and got out awaiting trial. He has never been convicted of a violent crime. His lawyer says he is going to do 5 years I just read in the paper hat someone got 3 years for murder. It just seems way unjust to me. My brother who is as sick as someone can be is getting five years while someone else commits a violent murder and gets 2 years less. Does this not seem wrong to anybody but me? I am sorry but this just hurts me like you cannot believe to see my sweet brother looking like such a tired old man going down again.