Hi -
I was made homeless the first time last Christmas
(got papers on Christmas EVE, how Dikensian is THAT?)
Found a place, changed jobs
lost the new job
was homeless again by May.
I was without work and without a home all summer this year.
I learned something very very important.
Being homeless did not kill me.
Being embarassed about my condition ... didn't kill me.
Facing jerks who manage to keep THEIR jobs... didn't kill me.
Keep their jobs by lying and breaking the law... didn't kill me.
Apparently ... I cannot be killed.
The point being,
all those fears -
were so huge in my mind,
that I was reacting to them
as if my very life were in danger.
Which simply was not the case.
And I don't have a father
or anyone family
who would have to take me in.
There was noplace left to run.
I literally had noplace to go.
But something DID happen.
I had to let it happen though.
How did I let it happen?
By deciding that I was going to take care of myself.
For the first time in my life
I was going to put myself, and what I need out of life... first.
Above anyone else's needs.
Mine come first.
Even then, though how I put it was
"How best can I serve?"
But once that came out that way -
I resolved that nothing else would ever come between
me and DOING what i'd been shown to do.
(just so you understand it wasn't from a selfish place)
I decided to become my own best friend.
And that little decision... has changed everything.
Literally.
Stay right here, hon.
in THIS moment.
right here, right now
you have a roof over your head.
you have food in your fridge
you have two cats who love you.
you have a chair you can wedge under the door just for tonight.
see?
right here, in this moment ...you already are with your best friend.
and if she's like MY new best firend...
she's been waiting for this for a long, long time.
go for it!!