I have been thinking about that a lot lately. Like, how long I have been accepting behavior in him that has been detrimental to him and me. Like it's "Just how it is" or something. I feel like I am very ill, not normal.
It all has crept up on me.
I wonder how much it has to do witht he fact that there were not ANY strong responsible men in my family. seems like most of the boys in our family are not taking care of themselves. My two sisters each have a son who is very like my son. addictive. not responsible for themselves. I can see that my sisters also enabled their sons. our daughters have done fine- they have their disfunctions, but they were always able to get out and take care of themselves. I have been able to also.
did my alcoholic father set the stage for how we raised our sons? Our family seemed to be dominated women. men were just not caretakers.
I really apperciate you all, so much.
I just wish I was able to get my head straight, and to be strong.
should i accept a call? he knows there is no money for bail.
I am hoping to be strong enough to drop a few of his belongings off at the court house thrusday., and tell him that he cant stay with me.
i feel like it is killing me and him.