Hi Clay -- glad you found us! I thought I would give you a link to some articles on alcoholism:
http://howistoppeddrinking.org/to-dr...e-internal-war
I used to promise myself I'd stop, too, and found it hard to get even 2 or 3 days sober in a row. You're not alone. Keep posting and reading - we're all here for each other, which now includes you, too!