I think a lot of my anxiety (before I added booze to the mix) was unadulerated fear and lack of confidence in myself...so between the fear and the drink I opted out of a lot of things over 20 years - I've had a fast learning curve on how to be a functioning adult since getting sober LOL
Fear and lack of confidence is exactly why I started down this path. Then, I convinced myself that the alcohol calmed me down. And, thus, the alcohol anxiety dance continued, as we've all discussed.
But one of the fears that I allow to get back in the bottle is that I get anxious about being anxious in the future and not having that wine to calm my nerves.
It's still 150,000 degrees outside, but I think I'll have a walk and a good think.