Hi there Jordan! Welcome to the forum
I can't even begin to tell you about all the great information that is on this site.. read around, you will never feel alone! I am so glad that you are taking the steps toward sobriety. No one is going to tell you it is an easy feat - but if you are truly committed to taking your life back from the grasp of addiction - you will be fine
The key to sobriety (i have learned) is taking one day at a time, focusing on the here and now. Addiction will steal everything you love away from you - in the blink of an eye. It seems that unfortunately, you have already felt a dose of its power. But you know what the good news is? YOU are much stronger than addiction! You have the strength to overcome any situation if you follow the right steps.
keep posting. post when your doing well, post when your not feelin so hot. and read read read
new days filled with happiness, self love, and sobriety are waiting for you, congrats!