Thank you all for your supportive posts!
I still got A LOT of work to do on MYSELF. I've lost that carefreeness that I used to possess and have no idea how to get it back
I guess I've made a little bit of process (my roomate lately told me of 2 instances where she said she saw the "real" Lotus coming out - she's only known me post-AH), but for the most part I'm still quite tense and worry a lot.
Still breathing... gonna keep trying to keep my side of the street clean ... gonna do yoga now
Summer - lol, Palm Reader - Why didn't I come up with that?
BTW, I love this: "Plant your own garden, instead of waiting for someone else to bring you flowers."