I agree with Lexie's statement:
It takes awhile before not drinking feels "normal"
I honestly didn't know what to do with myself at first, either. Nothing seemed interesting and all I could think of was drinking, or rather NOT drinking. I spent a lot of time here as well because I really needed to get support and remind myself over and over why sobriety was/is so important.
I didn't really want to stop getting my buzz but it had turned on me and it wasn't fun anymore. It may have been a relief to have those few drinks, but the few drinks turned into too many drinks, a hangover, and a lot of work to try to control it, hide it, and appear normal to everyone. I also started to sense that my health was going to get bad if I kept pouring.
I'm glad you're here. There are so many things to do in life, but if you don't see them at first, just give it time. It will come!!:ghug3