Glad you came back and posted, tooling. A lot of us have had false starts, but the whole point of it is to not give up on yourself. You're a worthwhile person and deserve to live a life free from addiction.
Hang out here this weekend as much as you need to. Just put your sobriety first and take it a day at a time. Oh yeah, forgive yourself, too. Alcoholism is "cunning, baffling and powerful" as they say in AA. We're not losers - we just need help to stay sober. :ghug3
