Wow. It's hard to believe a month ago I posted this looking to make it through the weekend without drinking. i failed. And I have drank every weekend since.
I have come to realize if I am not 100 percent wanting to quit I won't. It only takes 1 percent to want to keep drinking to keep me drinking.
I didn't want to come on here and say i failed every weekend. But i did want to come on here and say I am 100 percent I am going to make it this weened.
There is no other way out of this other than to stop. I can't stay drunk all day everyday. I'll die. I might get bored, I will be tired, and probably mentally a little chemically off. But I have to believe my body will adapt to being straight and I will feel better down the road 6 months.
Keeping myself busy is my goal. I want to keep my mind off of what my body is doing behind the scene. I don't want to look in the mirror every day and look for changes. or feel how I feel everyday. I just want to forget all of this like it's a bad dream.