I care ananda...
You have received excellent replies here. I've received inspiration from them too.
What I have is simple. God is everything.
God is my only defense against that first and deadly drink. In the past few years of sobriety...I've had more than a few 'shaky' moments. I do not have any other explanation for staying sober through those dark and practically faithless times and the fact that I'm still sober today except for evidence of God 'carrying' me through them.
My very best to you)))