thats an important word there ananda...desire......
i get a desire for lots of thing......cheescake....ooh yeah........a cuddle with the wife.........a new more powerful truck.....
but when none of that stuff comes off, it isnt a big deal.
a physical craving to an alcoholic like me is way different.........i wouldnt abandon my daughter for years so i could eat cheesecake.
When i trigger a craving for booze.....and i trigger that by taking a mouthful...life becomes about one thing.........GETTING MORE....till i drop....
i might even get a mild obsession cooking over cheesecake.....especiallly the strawberry one...
But a mental obssession for this drunk around booze is in a league of its own.
and i believe exclusive to the alcoholic.
i have never felt suicidal because i couldnt have cheesecake....
but take booze away from me and i quickly become morose.....before long life doesnt have any meaning......and i wish for the end.
thanks for pointing that out ananda.