I'm so sorry, Summer. Sending you hugs, hugs, hugs.
Major pain, I know. Except that I never got the "validation" that my exA was cheating. I know it's true, though, b/c even though the affair BEFORE our relationship was admitted, there was a real hesitancy (refusal) to break off contact...all the while the other person was married. I, too, dismissed the gut feelings for long time.
I've learned a lot through that, and I know you've learned a lot, too. I'm sorry for your pain, but look forward to hearing about all the growth and happiness you're currently planting in your life...watering the soil with tears right now, but as you know it's all for the best, ultimately.
Congratulations on starting a new life~breathe deep~
posie