My last hic up was only one drink. But I beat myself up pretty good. But, my sponsor told me, that it was progress, because, for the first time, I actually came back, and was honest about it, instead of waiting untill I got caught. And didn't let it drag out, and become a big mess.
And more important, is that I learned how cunning, baffling and powerful this disease can be. And, I learned what in my head, can allow my desire to drink, to overcome my desire to stay sober