He certainly is a fool. I wasn't an angel by any means and added to the hardships of the relationship, but in NO WAY did I deserve to be cheated on.
I was too good for him, this classless married mother sending boob/crotch shots is obviously more his caliber. He was rarely having sex with me and when we had sex two weeks ago, I just knew he was thinking of someone else because he was very different sexually and I called him out on it and he kept saying "Why are you saying that"
My entire BEING was telling me he was cheating.
I feel very lost right now. If there is a word that is stronger than hurt, well that's how I feel.
What I need to do is get over this hump of grief and not think or talk about him anymore.
I need to make my life about me now. I work full time, take courses and I also have lupus. My health has been failing terrible in the last 3 years. I'm sick all the time
Anyone who does what he did has to have some sort of personality disorder. It just doesn't make sense.
I cannot make sense of anything right now