There is a thread in the A's section "I will not drink or drug today because....insert your reason"
Now these people are doing a great work at this.
I read it one night when I couldn't sleep. I saw the title again just a minute ago.
My mind flipped it to I will drink or drug today because.....(insert your reason).
I personally can't come up with the scenario where it would make me feel better today.
Then I am trying to remember all the reasons I was given and actually tried to ponder and understand~because I know the XABF that I had my head up my butt over.....and that I tried to make sense of and believe.
I think the one that struck me with astonishment near the beginning of the relationship was:
"Friends stopped over and had this bottle of xyz and I (looking sheepishly at me) drank a bunch real fast so it would be gone and they would leave before you got here. I am sorry."
I am grateful that today I can laugh about it.
