Hi lulu
Have you gone to therapy?
Also have you considered Bach flowers? they are World Health organization-approved and I have personally found they help lift me from my fog in ways nothing else can.
I hope you can get closer to the God of your understanding, become active in your faith or improve that relation between you and HP however you see fit.
Physical exercise has done wonders for my mood. I go wacko otherwise. I tested this last weekend.
Keep searching for activities that feed your soul.
Yoga is also a recommendation.
Just a few things that have helped me overtime.
:ghug3