((((HUGS)))) I'm sorry you are so down. Perhaps you should check with your doctor. It sounds like you may have some depression going on. I know before I got treatment, I felt pretty much the same way you do. It was all I could do to get out of bed and dress myself and go to work. This is not natural. Maybe a talk with your doctor will give him some insight into something that may help. Sometimes, we just need a little help and then we can take it from there.
