Feeling deflated
I was going to say defeated but that isn't really accurate. I'm just tired and deflated about the prospect of never getting xah out of my life. He just won't give up on the blaming, twisting of the truth, and jabs. I know and understand that is just what is going to happen it just gets so old. I ignore those comments (all in email) and do not say anything negative about him or to him. I just don't get into it and that does keep me out of the fray (and makes it far easier on the kids) but it still feels bad. Some days more then others. It will never end. I have accepted that I guess I'm just having a pity party right now.
It feels like I am letting someone get away with trying to make me feel so small and wrong. I know I am not wrong. I am free and intend on staying that way forever but does anyone have a nifty way of looking at this or dealing with it when it gets me down?