Welcome Laurie - thanks for sharing your story with us. I was determined to never have to give up drinking all together. For decades I played with it, and it almost destroyed me. Alcoholism is a progressive disease - as HumbleBee said, it's goal is to kill you. If you have liver damage you've most likely been abusing for a long time, even if you don't consider yourself an alcoholic. Your body needs to heal & try to repair itself - there's still a chance that can happen.
My attempts at moderating failed miserably. I tried every trick in the book to make it work. Just drink beer, just drink on weekends, or holidays - all roads led to binges and blackouts. I'm not saying you were ever that type of drinker, but if you've been drinking for 32 years, your body has been badly damaged in many ways. Please reconsider and give yourself chance to get well & enjoy the life you say is better without the booze.