In my case it was domestic abuse counseling that really helped me more than anything.
You are certainly correct that you deserve the dignity to make whatever choices you choose at any point in time.
I laughed myself silly at KindEyes depiction of spinning and the zinger of not eating a hot dog!
Humor is always a saving grace IMO!!!
I found that the more time and space I had the less I spun and the better I felt.
My decisions came alot easier then.
But I must admit it was one person's straightforwardness here that gave me the truth and momentum to protect see the situation as it was and to make me darned determined to hang on to my time and space.
AND BTW, I did the back and forth dance for five years!