Please contact your nearest domestic violence center, and see if you can set up some counseling with them.
It's difficult enough dealing with codependency, but throw in being a battered woman, and it really takes extra support.
I am a survivor of domestic abuse, and I don't believe there were nearly as many resources back then, but I could be wrong. I left my EXAH in 1986.
Keep posting, and know that we are here to support you!
