Yeah, I've heard a bunch of different theories about real vs. fake alcoholics. As if someone would endure all this heartache because they are bored and need a hobby.
I'm going to post a brief overview of my story in the appropriate place and hopefully it clarifies some of the points I'm passionate about. But quickly: I was sober for 11 years. I relapsed and endured 3 years of pain and despair. It was only when I was taken through the steps (which I had never done before), that I felt relief. So I've become a bit of that annoying thumper type, which I swore I'd never be. Bear with me as I try to find the right voice for what I'm going through. Appreciate the welcome. By the way, I'm in North Jersey-- Hunterdon County.