Understood as well. I hear you.
I've had some interesting discussions with someone else on another board about "real" alcoholics (as the term is used in the Big Book) versus people like me (who, I'm told, isn't a "real" alcoholic--YET
).
This thread isn't the place, but it's an interesting topic for discussion. I'll post about it one of these days when I've clarified my own thoughts and questions a bit more.
Welcome to the forums, incidentally!