Anvil, you're right. I don't think I even realized... Do you think I like to torture myself? Why else would I want to make myself sad and re-read stuff like that? He still consumes my mind.. but, he doesn't love me anymore, and it sucks.
Oh well, cause soon I WILL LOVE ME!
I love how you're always able to point out the things I cannot see for myself! I appreciate it greatly. I know that now, two years later I can look back at stuff from my ex before him.. and only have fond memories, no regrets, and no pain... I should just stash everything away until I fully get over him.
I really don't like to throw things away. I've been journaling since I was 13... and with such a HORRIBLE memory I like to have things to look back on. I just need to wait. (kinda talking to myself here)