At its worst now
feeling so anxious and depressed in bed. This is the first night after the first day sober and it is even more difficult than I imagined it would be. I can forget about sleep. My chest is tight and my heart is pumping. Im sweating and nauseous. Didnt think I could return to this level of withdrawal, Im sure tomorrow night will be rough too but I am feeling the very moment of totality. Any old heads here who are struggling to remain sober have a read of this and it should be enough for you to keep you sober. Well I just forced down a grapefruit and am going to have to work tomorrow. Its a blessing as I would drive myself mad if I spent another day on my own like this. If any of you are spiritual, a prayer would be appreciated.