Ann and Anvil thanks. I know I'm finally admitting I'm powerless...I am getting there. Maybe I am entering detachment subconsciously? Is that possible? Isn't detachment not a loving thing though? I've heard of detaching with love and I don't get that. I am obviously feeling very cold to AH and definitely "feel" detached at the moment.
now what? Well I'm working on figuring that out...sort of had a plan and now I'm stalling. I can't believe I'm stalling. This sucks!!!