Congratulations on 10 days! Isn't it great?
For me, I've found that dwelling on the past is totaly counterproductive. Why worry about it? It's gone.
I was drunk for 30 years and I'm 50. I've got almost seven months sober.
Why dwell on the time wasted and all the other ruin drinking causes?
Live in today, and look forward to tomorrow where you can march into the day sober and productive. And rejoin life and live in the moment.
Best wishes to you, and remember, one day at a time!