SASA, I think what you are feeling is completely normal, I'm having a terrible craving right now, my brain is telling me that there is no need for me to continue with this AA program, and that I am fine and normal, and should go and buy a bottle of wine and enjoy it like any other normal adult human being would. HA!
I think your doing just fine SASA we have a disease of the mind, and that is what is so cunning baffling and powerful about the obsession we have. What I love, and am in the game for is what posters such as Least has shared that after a few months, this passes, and we are able to move on. Just hang in there, this is the hard, and tough part. I'm right along with you.
-Lith