Dear Serene,
Wow- you have received some really great comments here. there are awesome people out here, caring for us , arent there!
you are doing a good job of being brave, and of thinking of the things you need to think. just as Utopia said, just keep on living one minute , one moment, one day at a time, know you are loved, believed,and that you will be ok- I think that is beautifully said.
It sure sounds like you know what you need, and I think it sounds like you are doing the right things. It is good to have this family here , isn't it.
big hug, and let us know how it is going.