Hey Womble,
I'm sorry to hear that your struggles continue. It sounds like you're in a pretty dark and unforgiving place. I wish your sponsor was not so harsh on the line about no outside meds, but each of us interprets the program differently. I know my sponsor here would not allow me to get away with that either. On the other hand, your doctor is telling you you need to take your meds. Buddy, I'd say keep the alcohol with AA, and keep the meds with your doc. I wouldn't talk to AA about the meds at all. Just make sure that your doc knows you have a high probability of abusing the meds, keep her in the light, and let her help you with them. All I ever did with meds was abuse them, they never worked for me. Would you get more acceptance by the group if you were drunk, but off the meds, perhaps that's worth a try. I hope you feel better, I'll keep you in my prayers.
-Lith