Knowing you have a problem is just the start. The thought of not drinking again used to SCARE THE CRAP OUT OF ME!!! That is why I would delude myself into thinking I could be a moderate drinker, because stopping just was not something that I thought was a possibility. Now the thought of never drinking again doesn't scare me, but knowing how hard I will have to work to make that happen scares me,lol. You can do it though, just gotta want to. Welcome back.