Hey Yellow Birdy
Noone ever made me drink - but I blamed a lot of folks cos it was easier for me that way...especially if they bought my BS and backed off...
Addiction can show us at our worst. I said and did some atrocious things to people.
None of them were true - I just was that deep into it, all I wanted to do, whether I admitted it or not, was drink....that came first....
I'd go on the attack, and then later be overcome with remorse and begging for forgiveness....but I'd start all over again.
I hope you'll take care of you in all this.
Your husband sounds as ill as I was.
I hope he reaches the point soon where he realises he needs to get himself help.
It's not your fault.
D