SoloMio, it sounds like you've reached a crossroads. Yes, it took you a while, but better late than never. I too suggest going back to al-anon.
I broke up w/ my exab 3 months ago. Weekends are hard for me-I feel kind of lonely. It's not like I couldn't get dates if I wanted them, but I feel completely NOT ready for that. I mean, I spend most of my time working and the rest of the time posting on SR lol
The first thing I thought when I felt lonely was not, I need to contact my ex! It was "I need a meeting"! That's how much I am being helped by them. You could seriously use a support network right now.
And your conversation with your brother - WOW. Just, wow. It shows perfectly how an active alcoholic is totally incapable of thinking about anyone's needs but their own and shows why WE as codies need to stay firm in our boundaries and refuse to enable. Kudos to you for staying strong! Hang in there.