Hi mate. Drinking kept dragging me down lower and lower. I often thought that the world was a dark and corrupt place and that my salvation to this f*cked up world was alcohol and drugs. + music of course but only if I was off my head intoxicated.
I realised that alcohol and drugs ( particularly alcohol) was actually my worst enemy. It was a painful and harsh realisation. I thought it was my best friend for many years. The last few months of my drinking it was my only company on the park bench as I didn't want to drink in pubs because of the bouncers and police around. Easier to drink alone in the park. My thinking was severely warped whils't I was an active alcoholic.
Now I surrendered and see the world and my life so much clearer and realise that I can be happy and enjoy living now. I just have to know that drink and drugs cannot be a part of that life now 'just for today'.
peace