Hi Eliot - I know what it's like to go back to drinking and end up with the same old results (or worse). I didn't want to quit either. Worse yet, I didn't know if I could. But I wanted to WANT to quit. And lurking around SR convinced me that there wasn't a middle choice anymore. Either start getting sober one hour at a time, or get worse. I couldn't pretend anymore that I'd be able to control it.
It takes some effort, for sure, but at least you get something good from it. With alcohol, you only get slow destruction and misery.
Glad you're back. Keep taking it one day at a time!